Q. For several days/weeks, I have not been waking up for Fajr Salaah due to a combination of 2 factors: (1) It takes me too long to perform wudhu, especially when I am tired (2) laziness.
My wife has encouraged me several times on a daily basis. Her repetitive encouragement caused me to become annoyed and angry, and so, when she asked me: ‘are you waking up,’ I mumble ‘hmmm’ but, on several occasions, I have had a strong, lasting thought of objecting to her encouragement. I have thought for some time, and was on the verge of saying: ‘don’t keep saying the same thing, you don’t know what it’s like for me. Repeating the same thing over and over again does not help the situation.’ I did not say this. I regret my anger and the thought of saying words against Salaah. Would this be kufr?
A. Your gross negligence in respect of the Fajr Salaah stretching for “several weeks” betrays your repentance over committing this major sin. Had you sincerely resorted to Taubah, you would not have allowed yourself to miss “several days and weeks” of Fajr Salaah and only after becoming mentally imbalanced in regard to your Imaan resort to seeking assistance from the Ulama.
It is necessary for laymen to immediately seek guidance from the Ulama-e-Haq when committing sin which is the cancer of Imaan. Why are you tired at Fajr time? What time do you sleep?
Before sleeping meditate on the Aakhirah. Think about the rewards for obedience and the chastisement over disobedience daily at the time of retiring to bed. This will, Insha Allah, remove your inertia.
Your thought or intention to stop your wife from her repeated encouragement does not constitute kufr.