The Life of Hakeemul Ummat (58)

It was the effect of this Ta’alluq Ma’Allah that even in sickness there was no change in his daily practices. In this regard, one day – the 11th of Jumaadath Thaani 1353AH [at the age of 73] – Hazrat was afflicted by severe intestinal pains which had reached his kidneys. With complete restraint, however, he performed Fajr Salaat, notwithstanding the pain, in such a way that no one became aware of his difficulty. He did reduce the length of the Qiraat though. After fulfilling the Namaaz he carried out his other work and he presented himself for the morning Majlis and imparted spiritual advice to the Taalibeen. Close to eight o’ clock the Khuddaam became aware of his pain. They brought some medicine and through it, Bifazlihi Ta’ala, after an hour the pain went away. For any average person so much work would not have been carried out as usual.

The ascetic state of his heart was such that he would say:

“The mere thought of me having anything unnecessary in my possession makes me shudder. Even if I don’t see those things again the thought occurs that why are such surplus things in my possession? What are they for after all? I am greatly perturbed at having something in my home which in not used. Guarding something without return! Being a porter! Becoming a labourer! Needless headaches! Saaib [a poet] said it very well, that:

حرص قانع نيست صائب ورنہ اسباب معاش
آنچہ ما در کارداریم اکثرے  در کار نیست
Greed will not give Saaib contentment
Worldly possessions we have more than requirement

If something comes to me as a gift then upon receiving it the worry overcomes me that, what must I do with it. Until I do not find a need for it I keep on thinking about it. What must I use it for? I fear also, lest it be ungratefulness for the bounty of Haq Ta’ala: ‘Useless! We give you and you become agitated!’

Some things, well, are useful upon receiving. However other things that come are such that one has to think of what to do with them. Either I give it to someone, or if niggardliness overtakes me then I think: ‘Oh, why must I give it to anyone free. Let me sell it. Then I sell it and utilize the money in necessary avenues. That’s the end of it. It is a burden to have it with me.” (Raahatul Quloob, p.25)